these days.

I've spent the last year, literally, preparing for this...and yet it is somehow nothing I expected.  Yes, I'm frustrated at some aspects of the program, but I'm also kinda dissapointed in myself.  I had so much confidence.  And now I feel so overwhelmed.

So, so overwhelmed.

I have so much I've wanted, needed, to say but the four foot stack of textbooks now littered on my kitchen table leave no time.

This is not a pity party.  Nope.  I knew what I was signing myself up for, that this was an accelerated program.  I knew all of that.  I just had no idea how very hard it would be.  So, I'm adapting.  Everything.  My life, my time with the kids, my relationship with the man I love, my patience, my tolerance...and I'm also teaching myself to say that it's okay.  This is for now.  This is not permanent.  I will not fail.  I will not fail.

I have so much to say.

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